Helper

Autumn has been a big helper lately. She bandages daddy's head with princess bandaids and tries to change Hunters bum (mostly she just brings the diaper and wipes). I don't know why but all of a sudden its very important to her to do all these things. I guess thats just my little girl growing up and I am all of a sudden very aware and grateful that I had a girl first to be the babysitter and caretaker of younger brother and someday, future siblings. We also had a snow day recently, Jonathan took the time from work to play with us and we all built a snowman together. Its been a pretty good month.

Morning suprises

Jonathan and I watched the sunrise the other morning, it was so beautiful. Looking forward to many more pretty sunrises and sunsets with my honey.
The bottom picture, the kids stuck their toy animals in the cereal bag. When I went to pour Hunter's cereal, out came the these ducks! They were so cute sitting in the cereal bowl I had to take a picture...we had been wondering where those ducks went.....

Poem

A lady I know wrote this poem for me, it is so beautiful and she has been such a help during this time.


My Dear Friend My heart it aches so deep for you
it dropped when I read your news
I have been through tht heartache too
I have made it through those blues.
At first I did get frightened,
what if it happens to me too?
And as I walked,admired the trees,
my thoughts came back to you.
As I am walking freely,
you are crying deep
you have lost a part of you
as your little one does sleep.
How I wish I knew
How to take it all away,
how are you going to get through
each and everyday?
I don't know if you believe in God
If you don't its ok
I hope that you wont mind
if I send you loving prayers anyway.
Know that this is not your fault
there's nothing you have done
sometimes the rain does pour
we lose sight of the sun.
I know that you are hurting
in a way you never known
I hope you know we love you
and that you are not alone.
As I try to sleep tonight
you will be in my thoughts and prayer
I am so sorry my friend
I love you

My 3 Angels

In the last 6 months, I have had three early miscarriages. One in August, then in November and this month, December. My questions are many as to why. But I have had many people tell me, that those babies will always be mine and I was chosen for this trial. I never thought it would be my trial, my first two kids are healthy and their pregnancies a breeze. So then, am I a bad mother? Do I not deserve anymore children. I surely hope that isn't the case even though this trial has tested me in every way possible. My tears come frequently and I have feel lost. But I have to keep faith and hope in Heavenly Father, that He knows what is best for me. We hope that we can trust in the Lord and that the doctors will be able to help us fix the problem soon so we can add to our eternal family. But to my three little angels  I will always love you.

Getting Ready for Christmas

We have been trying to get into the Christmas spirit, which has been a hard thing to do because we are going on our second week of being sick, first sore throats and colds, now ear aches and stomach bug. But we got a beautiful Christmas tree, it is our favorite tree so far that we have had. I have also been having some health issues that we hope can be cleared up soon and we are praying for a happy healthy Christmas, it is and has always been my favorite holiday. This year has been full of trials, but appreciating my blessings has always been the best medicine. Trying to stay positive.

Autumn's 3rd Birthday

Autumn turned 3 on the 20th of November. We are up in Rexburg Idaho for her birthday and she is had a great birthday. She went with Jonathan on a tour of BYU Idaho campus, rode a miniature pony and got some good presents. She wanted a pinkie pie cake for her birthday. And she wanted to go swimming so we all went swimming with Uncle PJ and Aunt Charity. She is so grown up now and independent and smart. We love her so much and she keeps us running! :)

November

Well halloween is over, Autumn was tinker bell and Hunter was a pirate. It took all my will to just dress them up lol. But they had fun going trick or treating. Things have been pretty busy around here still. All the preg checking for the cows is done and so is the weening. Today we are loading up the semi trucks with all our calves. Yup its already that time to take them to market. We will go to La Junta on monday to watch them sell so we are praying for good prices. We have been praying a lot lately lol. We have a lot to be thankful for too. A beautiful family, our house, our cows and ranch, food on our table, church, vehicles that work....all the blessing we have received this year. We are also thankful that we can get a break to go up to Rexburg to see family for Thanksgiving. And Autumn is turning 3 this month!!!! Our sweet girl, so grown up. 3 years have flown by in a blink of an eye. And Hunter is 16 months....whaaaaaaa? My kids are so big now. I love to see how their individual personalities are coming out. Each is so different and special.